Oh I have only been a size 14 for 5months now and I am the biggest I have ever been

Beautiful Jeans hanging on that size 4 stick model, you look so amazing

with your no curves, but the way you twist your waist makes the already flattering jeans look better

I must try you on i see a size 12 and every thing under that, plenty of 6’s but no 14 in the jeans I want.

off to the big girls section oh how nice I see a 16 but no size 14

time to go home jean-less

In my perfect size 14….thinking should I gain to fit the 16 or loose to wear the 12….My perfect 14.




me in my sis 14 Jeans 🙂


The way God Made me

I have always had a weight issue

I have been almost every size, and sometimes the size has been me.

I often joke about having every size of clothing in my closet

Growing up I was real skinny and very athletic,

at 9years old. I had an accident and got even slimmer from refusing to eat, my parents got scared and bought me some casilan milk to make me eat and grow, it was so gross it was practically forced down my throat, by the time I was 11years old. I was so chubby and already a size 12 and kept getting bigger, in high school I saw my friends dress up in things I knew would be weird on my size 15 self, SO at 15 I was determined to loose weight, I stopped eating after 7pm and would do 100 sit ups every night by the time I was 16years old I was a size 9 but I still felt big even though thats the Size I pray to be again.

At 17 life changed drastically, I was even dating and would barely eat, I was away from home much and I became a size 6/7

On my 18th birthday My size 5 friend took me to LA where we celebrated my birthday, I felt big when I  I tried on her clothes as we often did, but I had fun regardless we took pictures and even drank, and danced.

a week later we looked at the pictures taken after developing them, and noticed my neck bone sticking out and felt weird about it, being skinny is not for every one, after that my boyfriend would constantly cook me steak and potatoes telling me he needed to put some meat on my bones

so my fattening Journey began 🙂 FUN TIMES

by the time I was 18 and a half I was a size 11/12 and loved the me that I was though I wanted to shed a little and by 19years old I was back to a size 9/10 and I was content

Life happened

stress got over whelming

I saw myself in many shades and some days I was content others I remembered my EX who wnted to fatten me up and now his new girl who looked like a size 7

by 20 I was a size 13, I went to visit my size 8 petite mother with my sister who was a size 6

My mother had not seen me in 5years and the first thing she says to me is “Cindy you are so fat now!!”

Emotions: anger, pain, self worth, tears, and walls shattering in my mind 

went back and started walking everyday with my friends pregnant mom and by 22years old I was a size 9 and loving it.

at 23 a size 11 at 24 I worked out till I was a size 10 at the age of 25

My weight still goes up and down, but I am loving the me that God made me to be, I have been many sizes and at times the sizes over took me but now I am just pleased with me, yes I could loose weight

I am 26 and I am the biggest I have ever been, but I am ME, Beautiful on the inside and out, blessed to wear different sizes and looking good all the way.

I found me along the way, and I am ok with me.

curves and all

from 18 to 23 my new years resolution was to loose weight 🙂 🙂

and now its just to be a better me than the year before 🙂

some pictures of me at different stages of my weight journey


child hood


17years old


18years old

Image20years old


22years old

Image22 again I lost so much weight


23years old



24th birthday party


one month before my 25th birthday party


2days after I turned 25years old


almost 26


July, 11, 2012