The way God Made me

I have always had a weight issue

I have been almost every size, and sometimes the size has been me.

I often joke about having every size of clothing in my closet

Growing up I was real skinny and very athletic,

at 9years old. I had an accident and got even slimmer from refusing to eat, my parents got scared and bought me some casilan milk to make me eat and grow, it was so gross it was practically forced down my throat, by the time I was 11years old. I was so chubby and already a size 12 and kept getting bigger, in high school I saw my friends dress up in things I knew would be weird on my size 15 self, SO at 15 I was determined to loose weight, I stopped eating after 7pm and would do 100 sit ups every night by the time I was 16years old I was a size 9 but I still felt big even though thats the Size I pray to be again.

At 17 life changed drastically, I was even dating and would barely eat, I was away from home much and I became a size 6/7

On my 18th birthday My size 5 friend took me to LA where we celebrated my birthday, I felt big when I  I tried on her clothes as we often did, but I had fun regardless we took pictures and even drank, and danced.

a week later we looked at the pictures taken after developing them, and noticed my neck bone sticking out and felt weird about it, being skinny is not for every one, after that my boyfriend would constantly cook me steak and potatoes telling me he needed to put some meat on my bones

so my fattening Journey began 🙂 FUN TIMES

by the time I was 18 and a half I was a size 11/12 and loved the me that I was though I wanted to shed a little and by 19years old I was back to a size 9/10 and I was content

Life happened

stress got over whelming

I saw myself in many shades and some days I was content others I remembered my EX who wnted to fatten me up and now his new girl who looked like a size 7

by 20 I was a size 13, I went to visit my size 8 petite mother with my sister who was a size 6

My mother had not seen me in 5years and the first thing she says to me is “Cindy you are so fat now!!”

Emotions: anger, pain, self worth, tears, and walls shattering in my mind 

went back and started walking everyday with my friends pregnant mom and by 22years old I was a size 9 and loving it.

at 23 a size 11 at 24 I worked out till I was a size 10 at the age of 25

My weight still goes up and down, but I am loving the me that God made me to be, I have been many sizes and at times the sizes over took me but now I am just pleased with me, yes I could loose weight

I am 26 and I am the biggest I have ever been, but I am ME, Beautiful on the inside and out, blessed to wear different sizes and looking good all the way.

I found me along the way, and I am ok with me.

curves and all

from 18 to 23 my new years resolution was to loose weight 🙂 🙂

and now its just to be a better me than the year before 🙂

some pictures of me at different stages of my weight journey

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child hood

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17years old

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18years old

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22years old

Image22 again I lost so much weight

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23years old

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24th birthday party

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one month before my 25th birthday party

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2days after I turned 25years old

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almost 26

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July, 11, 2012

My First Blog Ever-Intro

Today Was a good day, I went to school and got to hear different presentations, but there was one that stood out the most it was by a man named M. he spoke in my Marketing class, and talked about blogs being a positive way of practicing to write better. I have told you why I decided to open my blog, now let me tell you who I am, I am a daughter who has grown into a woman and is still growing everyday but to you I am Cindy or Precious 🙂 PreciouslymeCindy works as well. I am a woman finding herself and finding the world too. I have been through so Much in the 26years that I have been alive and its made me who I am today…… there is so much To tell but why write a book on my first blog……My blogs are going to be about life and that consists of everything, movies, food, poetry, love etc happy reading…..,